Pursuit of Happiness.
Isa-belle, Perth, Oz, 21


→ Apr 2016
When you try to talk about veterinary medicine stuff with non vet med people

pvmproblems:

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→ Feb 2016
Limbo.

I’ve got exactly a week till I get on a plane and fly 5 hours back for third year. I’m barely halfway into my degree (getting my clinic coat in two weeks, super stoked for that), but already I’m beginning to wonder- what’s next?

People hear often seem a little scandalised when I say outright I have the intention of working abroad, maybe even permanently relocating. The funny thing is, the more time I spend away from the place I grew up in, the easier it is to see myself being someplace else. Ask anyone, and their definition of home varies. I haven’t quite figured out what my personal definition of “home” is, though I firmly believe it’s a lot more than four walls and a roof. The thing is, I feel comfortable in solitude, with only my own thoughts for company, just as much as I feel at home spending time with family and friends, albeit for short periods of time. I haven’t ever had the foresight to set goals, much less plan for what comes after the completion of my degree. 

A conversation I had with an ex-classmate a couple of days ago left me fumbling, unable to articulate what exactly it was about Singapore (and its people) that I didn’t like. I concede it is a safe haven, but more and more these days, I find it harder to relate to my friends here, because of how different our experiences are, and how different the paths our lives have taken are. Physical distance is one thing, but this thing about not having anything in common makes you feel a little alienated at times. On the flipside though, is the undeniable fact that even if you do migrate to a place you could see yourself building a life, you’re forever going to be caught in between, calling a place your home, but yet, never really fitting in.

I wonder if someday I’ll look back at this period of confusion and laugh, when I’ve my shit altogether and found a direction to run in. Maybe someday. But that day sure as hell isn’t anytime soon.

→ Feb 2016
→ Feb 2016 ilianadreamer:
“ wanna get lost
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→ Feb 2016
→ Feb 2016 thelavishsociety:
“ Looks Delicious by Daniel Münger | LVSH
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→ Feb 2016
Back again (?)

Looking back on this space, and while everything is basically floating on the interwebs, going through all these things is like reading an old diary after blowing all the years of dust off. But so much has happened since I abandoned this space for no good reason other than I got bored, and here are just some of the things-

  1. I got into vet school, and survived the first year
    Which is the best thing that has happened in recent times, on top of meeting the loveliest bunch of people that has made every stressful day and every sleepless night so much better. 
  2. I’ve grown into myself a little more
    Which is pretty awesome, because while I don’t think there’ll ever be a day I won’t wish for something different about me, but I think the past two years have shaped me in more ways than I thought possible.
  3. STILL PERPETUALLY SINGLE
    Which has become more an issue in recent times, because it seems like I’ve lost even more friends to their significant others, and some of my friends are married/with kids even. The problem of being “too independent” has come up many a time, but screw that, I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I’ve got a little less than a month before third year starts, and I’ll have to leave Singapore again, but I truly am missing Perth and its beautiful beaches, and part of me is dying to head back.

→ Feb 2016 wolveswolves:
“ By Fall-of-rain
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→ Jan 2015
→ Jan 2015 convexly:
“ untitled by Sarita Lolita on Flickr.
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